Struggling with idea of full Veganism

[Jenny3315]

Hi everybody, I'm new here and I was so glad to find this place.

I am a vegetarian but have become very aware of how harmful ingesting eggs and dairy is for animals and am struggling to feel good about where I am at - I'm basically going against my beliefs every time I eat eggs and dairy. I have greatly reduced the eggs and dairy I eat and I use no animal products for clothes, beauty etc. I still feel like this isn't good enough.

However, there are a few reasons I am hesitant to try to go completely vegan. The first is a three decade history of eating disorders. Restricting for any reason is a huge trigger for me in regards to anorexia/bulimia. The second is my anxious 12 year old daughter who is also vegetarian. She loves cheese and ice cream but I know that if I go vegan she will feel she has to as well. She has OCD and I'm concerned about the impact this would have on her mental health - there is no way she will not become obsessive. I also worry about her developing an eating disorder like I did at that age. She has always been my number one and I don't know how I could do this while doing what is best for her. She also won't eat beans, lentils etc and cheese is a major protein source fo her. And lastly the third, ever since my daughter was three we have gotten ice cream out once a week. It is a precious tradition. I know there are dairy free alternatives at home but none of the places we go have them.

I am trying to make peace with being 'mostly vegan' but I have a very all or nothing attitude and feel like I am just making excuses. Any helpful/kind words would be appreciated.

 

[Emma JC]

welcome to the forum - I don't have time today to write you a long encouraging note and if no one else has done so, I will try to over the next couple of days - doing your best for your health, the animals and the planet is all that can asked of us all and as @Lou often quotes "Veganism is a lifestyle that seeks to exclude—as far as is possible and practicable—all forms of animal exploitation and cruelty. It's about doing what you can, rather than achieving perfection. To make it sustainable, you can focus on building plant-based habits, stocking essentials, and utilizing local resources."

Emma JC
Find your vegan soulmate or just a friend. www.spiritualmatchmaking.com

 

[silva]

Obsessing is such a road block to progress. I used to suffer and honestly, if I didn't change I would have blocked any thought of dairy and would eat cheese every day! I'll never forget pacing up and down aisles of a drugstore, going out and sitting in my car---all because I had discovered algae DHA made a noticeable improvement and the store had a BOGO on large bottles that was crazy cheap. And they were in gelatin capsules. I was so anxious knowing how much more the vegan ones cost and how stretched my money was. I went back in and bought them. I never looked back.
I think many people feel they'd slip and the guilt would be so bad. It's better to do better than wait until you can be perfect, because perfect doesn't come.
Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good. You need to do what keeps you and your child moving forward, and if that means being 'mostly' vegan, that's better than letting your mental health suffer. The more you discover new ways to make food the less animal based things you'll use.

Do you like to cook? It's amazing how many things you can transform with beans and lentils. Salted edamame pods, red lentils cooked in pasta sauces, crunchy bean snacks.....
I've always seen Columbus as having so many more vegan options than Cleveland--where I'm near. I've been wanting to make a trip and go to Seitans Realm
I'm about to make a copycat Dole pineapple whip. I think I'm gonna just go with blending the frozen pineapple with almond milk I need to use. Most recipes call for coconut milk

 

[Lou]

@Emma, thank you for that.
It's nice to know that someone is paying attention to me.

Hi everybody, I'm new here and I was so glad to find this place.

I still feel like this isn't good enough.

That is in a way a good thing. and something that we all should remember in all of our endeavors.
Being perfect is not attainable. And not trying because you can't be perfect is .. um... self defeating.
instead to paraphrase a football coach, you have to try to be better - every day.

However, there are a few reasons I am hesitant to try to go completely vegan. The first is a three decade history of eating disorders.

Walking the line between eating disorder and veganism is difficult and tricky. A lot of doctors will forbid people with Eds to go vegan. However I'm pretty sure that a person can "flirt" with a vegan diet and not make themselves crazy. in fact, the reduction of guilt and the feeling of accomplishment should be a positive thing.

I've heard it said that people with EDs should not track calories. right? it can trigger. however what if you track the calories (and nutrients) and at the end of the make sure you meet your goals. When I was in the care of an RD, after dinner if I hadn't met my goals I would make a snack. A chocolate PB Banana milkshake usually did it.


as far as your teenager. I like the idea of facing the issues and treating it as a challenge.
I've heard from so many people they don't like beans or that beans don't like them.
But there are thousands of types of beans and millions of recipes with beans. You just have to try some of them.
Also its. been established that there is a real brain stomach interconnectivity. I'm not going to get into it now but if you are motivated to. become vegan - then you should read some of that material. I don't have the titles handy but you can probably google them yourself. Or just ask the members for suggestions.

I know there are dairy free alternatives at home but none of the places we go have them.

That could be but then you probably haven't been to all the places close by yet. I know than B&R has at least one dairy free flavor at all times. And there is sherbet. and if push comes to shove, just go out for some thing else and have some Ben and Jerry's at home. This might be just the excuse you were looking for to buy an ice cream maker and make homemade ice cream. And it could be fun. Think of all the flavors you can invent.

I am trying to make peace with being 'mostly vegan' but I have a very all or nothing attitude and feel like I am just making excuses. Any helpful/kind words would be appreciated.

ok, how about this. No one is 100 % vegan as far as a lifestyle goes. Most vegans if they were to really analyze their diet by calories, or money spent , or protein are less than 100%. Maybe this week you are 80% so next week try for 81.

Also IMHO it's not really about percentages. it's about trying. in fact as the Vegan society puts it, Veganism is a philosophy and way of living which seeks to exclude—as far as is possible and practicable—all forms of exploitation of, and cruelty to, animals for....

I used bold for emphasis.

 

[Jenny3315]

welcome to the forum - I don't have time today to write you a long encouraging note and if no one else has done so, I will try to over the next couple of days - doing your best for your health, the animals and the planet is all that can asked of us all and as @Lou often quotes "Veganism is a lifestyle that seeks to exclude—as far as is possible and practicable—all forms of animal exploitation and cruelty. It's about doing what you can, rather than achieving perfection. To make it sustainable, you can focus on building plant-based habits, stocking essentials, and utilizing local resources."

Emma JC
Find your vegan soulmate or just a friend. www.spiritualmatchmaking.com

Thanks so much for taking the time to respond. I really appreciate it and such encouragement reminds me of why I am doing this in the first place and excites me to do more.

 

[Jenny3315]

Obsessing is such a road block to progress. I used to suffer and honestly, if I didn't change I would have blocked any thought of dairy and would eat cheese every day! I'll never forget pacing up and down aisles of a drugstore, going out and sitting in my car---all because I had discovered algae DHA made a noticeable improvement and the store had a BOGO on large bottles that was crazy cheap. And they were in gelatin capsules. I was so anxious knowing how much more the vegan ones cost and how stretched my money was. I went back in and bought them. I never looked back.
I think many people feel they'd slip and the guilt would be so bad. It's better to do better than wait until you can be perfect, because perfect doesn't come.
Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good. You need to do what keeps you and your child moving forward, and if that means being 'mostly' vegan, that's better than letting your mental health suffer. The more you discover new ways to make food the less animal based things you'll use.

Do you like to cook? It's amazing how many things you can transform with beans and lentils. Salted edamame pods, red lentils cooked in pasta sauces, crunchy bean snacks.....
I've always seen Columbus as having so many more vegan options than Cleveland--where I'm near. I've been wanting to make a trip and go to Seitans Realm
I'm about to make a copycat Dole pineapple whip. I think I'm gonna just go with blending the frozen pineapple with almond milk I need to use. Most recipes call for coconut milk

I can imagine that expense can be a big barrier for lots of people - I wouldn't have the extra money to burn either. I haven't even started checking all the supplements/meds I take but I think that is one area I will have to compromise as well. For example if my antidepressant I've been on for decades has gelatin there is no way I can stop it - I've tried all the alternatives and it's the only thing that helps my OCD. In a perfect world we wouldn't have to make choices between our health and using animal products - but when there is no other option, there is no other option.

I do like to cook and I'm beginning to experiment - I think with enough effort I can find things my daughter will eat. I haven't been to Seitans Realm but now that I am going to try to move towards veganism I have found a lot of good places around here to try.

 

[Jenny3315]

@Emma, thank you for that.
It's nice to know that someone is paying attention to me.



That is in a way a good thing. and something that we all should remember in all of our endeavors.
Being perfect is not attainable. And not trying because you can't be perfect is .. um... self defeating.
instead to paraphrase a football coach, you have to try to be better - every day.




Walking the line between eating disorder and veganism is difficult and tricky. A lot of doctors will forbid people with Eds to go vegan. However I'm pretty sure that a person can "flirt" with a vegan diet and not make themselves crazy. in fact, the reduction of guilt and the feeling of accomplishment should be a positive thing.

I've heard it said that people with EDs should not track calories. right? it can trigger. however what if you track the calories (and nutrients) and at the end of the make sure you meet your goals. When I was in the care of an RD, after dinner if I hadn't met my goals I would make a snack. A chocolate PB Banana milkshake usually did it.


as far as your teenager. I like the idea of facing the issues and treating it as a challenge.
I've heard from so many people they don't like beans or that beans don't like them.
But there are thousands of types of beans and millions of recipes with beans. You just have to try some of them.
Also its. been established that there is a real brain stomach interconnectivity. I'm not going to get into it now but if you are motivated to. become vegan - then you should read some of that material. I don't have the titles handy but you can probably google them yourself. Or just ask the members for suggestions.



That could be but then you probably haven't been to all the places close by yet. I know than B&R has at least one dairy free flavor at all times. And there is sherbet. and if push comes to shove, just go out for some thing else and have some Ben and Jerry's at home. This might be just the excuse you were looking for to buy an ice cream maker and make homemade ice cream. And it could be fun. Think of all the flavors you can invent.


ok, how about this. No one is 100 % vegan as far as a lifestyle goes. Most vegans if they were to really analyze their diet by calories, or money spent , or protein are less than 100%. Maybe this week you are 80% so next week try for 81.

Also IMHO it's not really about percentages. it's about trying. in fact as the Vegan society puts it, Veganism is a philosophy and way of living which seeks to exclude—as far as is possible and practicable—all forms of exploitation of, and cruelty to, animals for....

I used bold for emphasis.

Thank you for your response and suggestions. I think there are ways around most of the barriers I mentioned - like you said the eating disorder is where it gets really tricky. I believe as long as I don't obsess over being perfect I can do it in a healthful way. But when I start obsessing over every morsel of food I put in my mouth I'm asking for disaster. I'm going to do my best for now without obsessing - maybe it won't be as hard as I think. But hearing that perfection isn't expected/required from people who I admire (vegans such as yourself) is super helpful.