Companion Animal Memorial Thread

[Amy SF]

Holly has gone.

Her surgery didnt go well. I feel like I have been hit by a truck.

Thanks for all those that said nice things to me in the gripe thread.

Life without her really sucks.

I'm so sorry.

 

[Freesia]

Thanks (((((CrazyCatlady, Alice, Amy))))))

the only thing that is helping at the moment is distraction. I have been reading articles and tumblr blogs and it has helped my mind a bit. Thinking of going to sleep as I am so exhausted but I am afraid of sleeping. If I do I will keep my light on.

 

[KLS52]

Not what I wanted to see when I woke up this morning. So sorry for your loss, Freesia. My heart goes out to you. (((((Freesia)))))

 

[Freesia]

Thanks ((((KLS))))).

I will probably go to sleep now but I dont think my dreams are going to be pleasant.

 

[RabbitLuvr]

I'm so sorry, Freesia.

 

[Freesia]

Thanks (((((Rabbitluvr))))).

Still considering pulling an all nighter. I feel like I will have nothing but nightmares if I go to sleep. I keep falling asleep and getting flashbacks of this afternoon. I think I am still in shock, I feel detached.

 

[peacefulveglady]

Just now seen this and I am sorry your loss of your pet. I lost a expensive breed of a cat in 05 she was 5 years old and died expectantly.

 

[CrazyCatLady]

Have you spoken to a pet bereavement councillor? Not sure where you are but we have them in England xxx

 

[PTree15]

So very sorry for your loss, Fressia. Sending you healing vibes and cyberhugs.

 

[Muggle]

Oh Freesia, I'm so sorry. Sending you lots of hugs.

 

[Freesia]

Thanks ((((((((peacefulveglady, Ptree, Crazycatlady, Annia)))))))

You guys (ie the board) have all been so supportive. Peacefulveglady, sorry to read about your cat, it must have been very sad to say goodbye when he/she was so young.

CrazyCatlady, I guess I could see a grief counsellor, though in many ways I am not one for counsellors, I guess I dont really like opening up to strangers.

Well this morning I am a bit better, having had about 3 hours sleep. At least the sleep was dreamless, but upon waking it is like the world has been replaced by a horrible, nightmarish version of itself.

 

[Dedalus]

Well this morning I am a bit better, having had about 3 hours sleep. At least the sleep was dreamless, but upon waking it is like the world has been replaced by a horrible, nightmarish version of itself.

I know exactly what you mean and it is the most horrible feeling; it seems that the world is a colorless, meaningless and useless place. But you were there for Holly. As difficult as it is - talk, talk, talk about it with someone close to you who understands. You will say the same things over and over again - it is all right. Focus on and hold on to the memories of the times you had together. Nothing - not even death can sever the bond between you and Holly.

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

 

[Freesia]

Yes, that is exactly what the world seems like. It sort of feels pointless to get out of bed.
Thanks (((((((Dedalus))))))))

 

[mlp]

I am so very sorry, Freesia.

 

[Freesia]

Thanks ((((((mlp))))))).

 

[CrazyCatLady]

The Blue Cross are the charity I rehomed Goomer from and I've seen them advertising for volunteers to run the bereavement lines. I don't think I could ever do it xxx

 

[Freesia]

That is sweet of them to provide the service, CrazyCatLady.

I dont know if there is anything like that here but there are general counselling lines.

So I have my night class tonight. I am not sure whether I want to go or not. my anxiety was bad enough the other times I went but tonight I think it will be far worse. Then again perhaps it would be worth going just to keep busy. Still thinking about it.

 

[FortyTwo]

Aww. I'm so sorry. That's how I felt when I lost my kitty.

Keeping busy helps, but don't do anything you don't feel up to. If you feel like staying home then by all means do so.

So, so sorry for your loss.

 

[Freesia]

Cats are wonderful, I am not surprised you felt like this. I lost my own lovely cat in September. (((((((FortyTwo))))))) . I am mostly ok but for some things such as I cant look at photos of cats anymore and usually scroll quickly past them on tumblr. I can handle looking at black cats as he didnt look like them, but that is it.

Yeah still considering what to do with the course. I have decided to get my stuff together and either go to the course, or instead go see a movie, at least to get me out of the house.

 

[KLS52]

Today is the one year anniversary of Thor's death. Still miss you sweet kitty.