I’m regretting my climate activism efforts. Maybe a climate Holocaust will be the savior of all earthlings
I am a vegan activist, and have started also being an environmental activist about two months ago.
The main thing I’ve done, is establishing “the green forum” in the my military camp(I’m in Israel, army is mandatory here). It’s goals are convincing the soldiers in my camp that a change is needed, and they can make it. We have not started a thing yet(actually 95% of the work in the green forum is done by me), but now is the time that we start getting our ideas moving. The current projects are
• making posters in the camp(for example, in the mini store I want to put some anti plastic bags and alternatives poster)
• stop providing disposable products to every kitchen in every building of the camp, and encourage a switch to non disposal
• establishing a WhatsApp group for carpools to the camp(in which I will have to send short videos about environmentalism every once and then)
• inviting two lectures
• the thing I’ve been the most enthusiastic about- make changes in the food room to add more vegan food. And also to make a shift from animal stuff to alternative stuff, and making them as accessible as non alternative stuff are(because currently they are hidden I some ‘closet’ and you have to ask the food room people to give them to you), so non vegan will try and be attracted towards plant based diet. I was very upset when I had that meeting with the commander of the food room. In short, I had no one to talk to, and I’m pretty sure I should not open a front with him about it.
Now here is how I started the green forum:
I went to the division commander about a month ago, and told him in that a decisive and big change must be taken in order to save the world(my division commander is very open minded) and I explained why, in the most convincing way, and told him that the thing we do now(which is nothing), is the exact opposite from the goals of our army in terms of the environment(constantly changing stuff on behalf of the environment). He loved the idea. I mean at first he didn’t like the fact that I’m gonna have to nag him(usually I wouldn’t call it nagging at all, it’s just that he is pretty busy due to his rank), but he couldn’t help but realize that I’m right.
So here is the thing, here is why I think I shouldn’t be an environmental activist anymore(and if anything, the only effort one should make is actively avoiding a green lifestyle, in order to help climate change do it’s thing).I suppose I have had this thought for at least one year, in the darkest deepest part of my mind: the world is full with endless suffering. Therefore, It would be better if life didn’t exist on earth at all.
Now two things:
• we couldn’t destroy all life on earth even if we tried. We got animals here that can even survive in the outer space for a few years, so it’s off the table.
• if humans weren’t on earth, it would be the best thing that could happen. And that’s part of the reason why I want climate change to take over the world(to extinct humans). A new better world will be born from the ashes of the climate apocalypse. A world free from humans(that create the most suffering in earth, so much, sooooo much suffering). and the climate apocalypse might even be worth the suffering it will cause to humans and animals. But if I would be sure that climate change take over will create more suffering than good, I’ll still be a climate activist(even better and more determined than now), and will be free from the dammed tension and stress and all the other bad consequences this skepticism curses me with. so please if you got a good reason to think that climate change apocalypse will create more bad than good, please tell me!
If you think I might be right, listen to this- I really think I should not continue and do the projects although I promised my division commander(which I’m in a pretty close touch with) to do them.
When I realized I might do the wrong thing by being a climate activist, it really damaged my general self confidence. And it keeps harming my self confidence the more I work on the green forum stuff. It’s important to me because the main goal of my life now is make my confidence and self asteem better, and spend time for myself for a change, you know, self care.
But I really feel bad to just stop everything at the face of my division commander. However it puts me in great tension and misery to know that I’m wasting my time on something I’m not sure about, and I really could do a lot of stuff instead. Oh jeez, what should I do?
I am a vegan activist, and have started also being an environmental activist about two months ago.
The main thing I’ve done, is establishing “the green forum” in the my military camp(I’m in Israel, army is mandatory here). It’s goals are convincing the soldiers in my camp that a change is needed, and they can make it. We have not started a thing yet(actually 95% of the work in the green forum is done by me), but now is the time that we start getting our ideas moving. The current projects are
• making posters in the camp(for example, in the mini store I want to put some anti plastic bags and alternatives poster)
• stop providing disposable products to every kitchen in every building of the camp, and encourage a switch to non disposal
• establishing a WhatsApp group for carpools to the camp(in which I will have to send short videos about environmentalism every once and then)
• inviting two lectures
• the thing I’ve been the most enthusiastic about- make changes in the food room to add more vegan food. And also to make a shift from animal stuff to alternative stuff, and making them as accessible as non alternative stuff are(because currently they are hidden I some ‘closet’ and you have to ask the food room people to give them to you), so non vegan will try and be attracted towards plant based diet. I was very upset when I had that meeting with the commander of the food room. In short, I had no one to talk to, and I’m pretty sure I should not open a front with him about it.
Now here is how I started the green forum:
I went to the division commander about a month ago, and told him in that a decisive and big change must be taken in order to save the world(my division commander is very open minded) and I explained why, in the most convincing way, and told him that the thing we do now(which is nothing), is the exact opposite from the goals of our army in terms of the environment(constantly changing stuff on behalf of the environment). He loved the idea. I mean at first he didn’t like the fact that I’m gonna have to nag him(usually I wouldn’t call it nagging at all, it’s just that he is pretty busy due to his rank), but he couldn’t help but realize that I’m right.
So here is the thing, here is why I think I shouldn’t be an environmental activist anymore(and if anything, the only effort one should make is actively avoiding a green lifestyle, in order to help climate change do it’s thing).I suppose I have had this thought for at least one year, in the darkest deepest part of my mind: the world is full with endless suffering. Therefore, It would be better if life didn’t exist on earth at all.
Now two things:
• we couldn’t destroy all life on earth even if we tried. We got animals here that can even survive in the outer space for a few years, so it’s off the table.
• if humans weren’t on earth, it would be the best thing that could happen. And that’s part of the reason why I want climate change to take over the world(to extinct humans). A new better world will be born from the ashes of the climate apocalypse. A world free from humans(that create the most suffering in earth, so much, sooooo much suffering). and the climate apocalypse might even be worth the suffering it will cause to humans and animals. But if I would be sure that climate change take over will create more suffering than good, I’ll still be a climate activist(even better and more determined than now), and will be free from the dammed tension and stress and all the other bad consequences this skepticism curses me with. so please if you got a good reason to think that climate change apocalypse will create more bad than good, please tell me!
If you think I might be right, listen to this- I really think I should not continue and do the projects although I promised my division commander(which I’m in a pretty close touch with) to do them.
When I realized I might do the wrong thing by being a climate activist, it really damaged my general self confidence. And it keeps harming my self confidence the more I work on the green forum stuff. It’s important to me because the main goal of my life now is make my confidence and self asteem better, and spend time for myself for a change, you know, self care.
But I really feel bad to just stop everything at the face of my division commander. However it puts me in great tension and misery to know that I’m wasting my time on something I’m not sure about, and I really could do a lot of stuff instead. Oh jeez, what should I do?
