With a half hearted sigh I type with a heavy heart in mind about this life. Although I suddenly feel brighter my heavy heart nearly came to a stop with mega heavy sadness. I wish it never started but I typed a message in this box with great intention to seek the help I need. However I accidently deleted it and so have had to start again this time with a lighter soul, mind and heart. Oh so happy at times yet ever so miserable at others. I wont go into the trouble again but it looms. Suicide isn't the answer but sometimes it seems that way. Anything to escape real problems. Real bullies, mostly the meat eating sort. I hear voices as well and believe it is telepathy. Its not all random voices it makes sense and sometimes sadly. Especially receiving messages from a girl I was at school with it really saddens me that we couldn't get along no matter how hard I tried. Shes the one who makes me want to end it. End of story. I'm currently about to go into recovery mode where I'll feel completely belittled and suicidal. This will probably last until I fall asleep. Oh dear... must think of solutions.... how to cope with being bullied.. anyone? She is older and so I'm supposed to look up to her. Darn.
Feeling oh so low
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