Thanks for all the input.
Another question I have - I have issues with digestion and I'm really trying to heal my body and mind as well. I think the two are really very connected. Should I listen to all the "avoid peanuts because they have lectins and will turn your gut into a horrible mess" stuff that's all over the internet?
Nonononono...no
Obsessing about food is far too easy with all the different 'doctors', media influencers, people who stick a name to what they do.
Even my absolute go to guy, who really is all about just eating right, nothing more, can seem obsessive if you take what he says in the most literal ways. Dr Greger.
People have been eating all kinds of ways, with varying results. We all know those old folks who've eaten sausages, butter, drank and smoke and suffered little ill health.
thing is---food has been so manipulated by the big companies that all have a hand in politicians pockets. They've designed ways to specifically target what causes us to want more and more--the 'cravability' factor. Adding more salt, fat, sugar,on top of more additives and flavors
Eating food as close to it's natural state,and a variety of the catagories, is the best way to a good diet. Honestly, having some processed foods is not going to have a terrible effect on those who don't have issues.
What you're experiencing is more that nagging uncertainty of what to do.
I strongly suggest you seek out a plant based physician or Registered Dietician, or maybe a eating disorder support group even?
Can you try and add something like oats and berries, some green veggies, to your diet?
I feel you're aware of you're doing damage with your mono diet and just don't know what's better.
I could link many good researched books on gut biome diversity and how they affect everything from digestion, mental health, inflammation, stamina etc., but when you're trapped in obsession you won't know what to believe, and I get that.
I hope you're seeing someone for this,as you're lack of nutrients is probably causing you more harm than even believing a charlaton like Dr Grundy
In the meantime, maybe this book by a plant based Registered Dietician may bring you some insight