The last few weeks have been insanely stressful in life and work. I've been trying my best to keep my **** together, but tonight I made a mistake and I'm trying really hard not to totally hate myself for it.
I work 10+ hour days and then drive about 90 minutes each way between work and home. Today was a bad day at work. Tonight, there were two accidents along the way, so it took me almost 2.5 hours to get home. There's a fast food place right at my freeway exit, and I've learned exactly what I can order that's veg-friendly. I've gone there numerous times and they've always been perfect and accommodating.
Tonight, I went through the drive-thru and ordered the veg-version I get whenever I go. When I got home, I all but fell apart, and was so ready to just jump into my pjs and eat my dinner. I took a big bite, swallowed, and started zoning out instantly. Halfway through eating (I was eating a lot faster than I should've been), I realized it didn't taste normal—I look down and see that they had made a mistake and there was bacon in my meal.
I was angry, and super disappointed that I had eaten so much of it before becoming conscious to what was going on. Now I feel like I've failed (this is the first time I've had meat since August) because I didn't check it before I left the drive thru (but they've never gotten it wrong before, so I didn't feel like I had to) and because it took me so long to realize what I had done.
I feel sick, and I'm not sure if that's literally from the meat or just a mental thing. But this has just made a bad day feel even worse... I'm probably being overly dramatic, but all I want to do now it just shut out the world and sleep until New Years (but alas, I have to work tomorrow).
Have you ever had an experience like this? How can I forgive myself?
I work 10+ hour days and then drive about 90 minutes each way between work and home. Today was a bad day at work. Tonight, there were two accidents along the way, so it took me almost 2.5 hours to get home. There's a fast food place right at my freeway exit, and I've learned exactly what I can order that's veg-friendly. I've gone there numerous times and they've always been perfect and accommodating.
Tonight, I went through the drive-thru and ordered the veg-version I get whenever I go. When I got home, I all but fell apart, and was so ready to just jump into my pjs and eat my dinner. I took a big bite, swallowed, and started zoning out instantly. Halfway through eating (I was eating a lot faster than I should've been), I realized it didn't taste normal—I look down and see that they had made a mistake and there was bacon in my meal.
I was angry, and super disappointed that I had eaten so much of it before becoming conscious to what was going on. Now I feel like I've failed (this is the first time I've had meat since August) because I didn't check it before I left the drive thru (but they've never gotten it wrong before, so I didn't feel like I had to) and because it took me so long to realize what I had done.
I feel sick, and I'm not sure if that's literally from the meat or just a mental thing. But this has just made a bad day feel even worse... I'm probably being overly dramatic, but all I want to do now it just shut out the world and sleep until New Years (but alas, I have to work tomorrow).
Have you ever had an experience like this? How can I forgive myself?
, relaxation exercises, aromatherapy and doing things that you enjoy (not too much comfort eating though!). If it gets really bad, seek therapy. Please don’t be ashamed or embarrassed to seek therapy. Delaying needed therapy because of shame, embarrassment and/or stigma could lead to your mental health (and, quite possibly, your physical health) worsening and suffering unnecessarily.
